i haven’t listened to dashboard confessional for a very long time, until tonight.
i feel like I’m being swept away.

i think i've forgotten how to keep a journal – how weird is that?

i'm in my third week of summer vacation and i'm not as thrilled as i
a) thought i would be,
or b) usually am.

blah.

i found out today that i didn’t get the job that i was, like 99% for sure going to get.
i'm disappointed and relieved.

this means i’m going to stay in searcy for the summer and get to spend a lot of time with les and raven before they leave, which is wonderful.  but this also means that i'm missing out on a LOT of money, and may not be able to attend ATU next semester because of it.

fuck.

i’ve already put in my notice at RC – my last day is 28 may – but i don’t know what i'm going to tell them.  i may just look for a different job, ‘cause i'm not sure that i even want to go back.  i'm sick of working with food.

-d

Last night, I saw the sign at Hampton Inn that congratulated you and your newly betrothed.
And it made me a little sad.
 

afterthought:

while mrs. becky-from-next-door was out
with goggles and a leaf-blower,
i stomped around my own yard,
enjoying the fulfilling CRUNCH CRUNCH of the leaves under my flip-flops,
and looking longingly at ann-from-next-door's yard,
whose yard was brimming with far more leaves than my own.

i assigned names and/or concepts to each individual leaf,
each of which was something that's been stressing me lately.
after i paired a leaf to a name/concept,
CRUNCH.

i love fall. :)

 

i never seem to get to spend enough time with the people i care about, and always seem to spend too much with the people i don't.

parents + brother + brother's gf + granny + alicia + bff skye + myself  are roadtrippin' it to missouri for the weekend for my cousin janet's wedding.  i'll get to see a lot of the fam that i haven't in a while.  it'll be awesome.  and something i totally need.
 

&! d

I wish people in this library would either:
a) not have the volume on their iPods cranked up to eleven, or
b) listen to better music.

Seriously.

Also, if I hear the words "superman dat ho," I'm gonna take a swing at this guy.

...god damn it, "Get Low" is close enough.
It's go time, motherfucker.
 

too fresh up in this bitch,
&! D
 

Southland Tales is the worst movie I've seen in a long, long time.

:|
 

"I said the world could be burning 'til there's nothing but dark blue"

I awoke this morning to find that a good portion of Judsonia was without electricity. Not sure what the deal is quite yet. I just lit a candle or two and watched an episode and a half of Criminal Minds before my laptop battery died. I think I'm going to like Prentiss. Elle's been gone about two episodes, I think, from where I'm at, and I'm already like, "Greenaway who?" XD

First day of classes is going surprisingly well. I'm pretty excited about Recreational Games, but that's probably just because we'll be playing dodgeball and volleyball. Derrick loves him some volleyball. I'm part of the .07% of the population that actually enjoyed gym class in high school.

My Physical Science teacher is the funniest looking man to ever exist, ever. Also: that class is going to suck, hardcore. They really shouldn't let you teach if your speech patterns involve you using the word "um" every 2.5 seconds. There, I said it.

World Lit II is going to be awesome, but that's probably just because I'm a big geek. :B

Now I've got a two and a half hour break before Forensics. I'm rethinking taking this course, simply because I really don't want to spend two and a half hours stuck here every Monday. I'm expecting the class to be fan-frickin'-tastic, though, so hopefully it'll be worth it.

I've seen beaucoup de peoples I know today, which is nice. What's also nice is knowing someone in all but one of my classes thus far. Jocelyn's in my World Lit class, MJ's in my Creative Writing class, and Will [a regular at the Underground] is in my Physical Science class. Also: totally saw Mandy, who I haven't seen since I left UCA. Thought for a minute that she was in my Physical Science class, but she was in the wrong room. She used to prod me with a pencil every time I dozed off in Film Appreciation and I'm definitely going to need it in this class, so... sucks she's not in there.

ASU-Beebe now reroutes MySpace and Facebook to its homepage, which is... unfortunate. D:
 I'm sort of computer retarded, so I don't know if it would do the same thing if I were to hook up my laptop in the library. Hrm. I'm supposed to go check out MJ's dorm, but I don't have her number in my phone and I can't get it off of Facebook. Not to mention that I forgot my ethernet cable at the casa, so no go on that idea. Maybe I'll call Cody and get it from him. Or call Mom and have her check Facebook for me.

k, now I'm just rambling, so I'll stop this.

&! D

also: I totally shouldn't have this much homework on my first day of class.
It's just... mean.

Ack. Livejournal ate my entry! :|

so, in short:
- my mom's pretty awesome.  Except when she's sneaky and uses my love for pancakes to bribe me into mowing the yard.
- I'd forgotten how odd and kind of creepy some of the usual patrons at the Underground  [my old job]
-Six months 'til I turn twenty one!
- Also: six days until I leave for Branson!
- Criminal Minds is awesome.
- as is Dr. Horrible.
- I want to marry NPH.

-derrick

ACK.  livejournal ate my entry!  >:(

in short:
(1)  i have the best friends and family anyone could ask for -- far better ones than i deserve.  i am truly blessed.

(2)  tomorrow is officially the beginning of operation: get a job you lazy bum.

(3)  anthony's moving back to town.  meagan r. and sarah want to throw him a party, but after he ditched both of the bonfires travis threw for him last summer, no one in the gang is planning on attending.  the issues i have with anthony  [such as... oh, i don't know... him outing me junior year?]  make me not want to go either.  considering that anthony and i were good friends back in the day makes me think twice about this decision, though.

(4) i kick ass at horse, FYI.  [the basketball game]

hope all of you are doing well!

&! d

time: 2:58am
music: jennifer lopez - "mile in these shoes"

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in a fit of boredom, or rather as a desperate attempt to escape the soul-sucking agony that comes from playing super mario bros: the lost levels, les and i rented the number 23.

and just let me say, i am incredibly disappointed in the lack of things in my life that have to do with the number 23.

the only thing i could even figure out is my address number -- 1409.
14 + 09 = 23.

i think brandy has a thing with 23s.
skye has 911 stuff.
les and his 333s.

where the hell is my number?

i even got really excited when i thought i might have been born during superbowl xxiii, but nope -- i was born 31 january 1988. that's superbowl xxii.

crap.

numberlessly yours,
&! d

time: 3:46pm
music: Goo Goo Dolls - "Black Balloon"
drinking: pineapple orange banana juice {god, it's good}
what i should be doing: sleeping, i guess. who cares, though? i'm on break.

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i saw my first firefly of the year today!
well, okay... i saw its green glow-in-the-dark guts splattered across leslie's windshield, but still...

...summer's coming. :)

alliterations are fun,
&! d

 time: 2:48am
music: Chrono Trigger on pause.
food/drink: Diet Mountain Dew
chattin': no one
what I should be doing: studying for my US History final

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This weekend's been awesome so far.

My entire reason for writing this entry is that I actually just wanted to point out how ecstatic I am that it's March!
Two more months left 'til summer break!

I'll write more tomorrow.

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Ganked from Ev:

1. ask me to take pictures of any aspect of my life you're curious about.
2. please look at the previous requests as to not do repeats.
3. i'll snap the pictures and post them.

 time: 2:36pm
music: A Fine Frenzy - "Whisper"
food/drink: none
chattin': Les
what I should be doing: nothing, for once

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Apparently my time management skills are getting better, because it's two-thirty and I'm already done with class, homework, AND had a nap. I need to practice flute, and I'd like to go for a walk, but other than that?

 Nothing.

:) :) :)

It's refreshing, especially after how hectic the last couple of weeks have been.

You know what? Bill Murray gets on my nerves a little.

Okay, I'm going to go play a video game or something.

loving this unexpected downtime,
&! D

 Time: 12:40am
Music: Kimya Dawson - "So Nice So Smart" 
Food/Drink: Coke
Chattin': No one. 
What I Should Be Doing: Reading Biology or Sociology; sleeping
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I like my new bunny suit.
When I wear it, I feel cute.

happy birthday to me,
D